I started by 12pm and I did not sleep since then. I could not sleep for my first nap, as well as my second nap by 4am. Indeed, I used to go to bed late around 3am and wake up late morning by 12. Therefore, I can say that I could not fall asleep at all for my first few naps. I did feel tired but I need longer time to fall asleep. By 6am, I felt like my body was quite tired and even I could not see so clearly, everything was a little blur. I decided to go to the park and take some fresh air. I met a friend and had a short talk. Then I went back to my routine: cleaning my apartment, reading news and blogs, doing yoga and exercises and so on…
by 8am, I still did not manage to sleep but I felt like my body was like on a cloud… drifting away from the reality… I did not sleep though and I got up with a feeling of tiredness… After each nap it was getting more difficult to emerge.

I had a very busy day … and I could not attend my naps properly. By 4pm I slept on a chair for only 15mn… By 8pm I also skipped the nap. I felt ok though as I was very active. I took my nap by 12pm and woke up properly by 1230pm but I felt like my body was not so energetic and my mind had difficulties to focus. I could not look at the computer screen already. By 4am i took my nap, it was my second day only and I was feeling really tired. I felt asleep immediately and when I woke up, it was almost 12.30am. I had slept for a continuous 8hours….

I was very upset but I will continue my rythm and try to get my body to adapt. But so far, no bad results, no good results. I just know that I need a more powerful alarm clock.

This particular day, I was stumbling by boredom and I found Steve Pavlina’s blog which is dedicated to personal development. It immediately picked my interest and more specifically this post about polyphasic sleep captivated my attention.
Indeed, since I have been back from France, I have been quite unsatisfied with my life style and more specifically with my sleeping schedule. I got used to go to bed late, far beyond midnight and wake up late. The worst part was that I did not feel any rested. My energy level was low and I had difficulties to find the motivation to achieve my daily routine. Going to school itself became a hassle…

The first day I found this material, I red it entirely including definitions from Wikipedia online encyclopedia and other links. I weighted the pros and the cons… Immediately I felt excited. I talked about it to my flatmate and likewise, he enjoyed the idea. We both were on to start an incredible journey. At last, I remain alone. His lifestyle indeed does not allow such transition as he is having lots of classes and exams.

To make a long story short, the idea behind polyphasic sleep is to reduce your sleeping time from the usual average 8 hours per day to an amazing 2 to 3 hours per day. The method is simple, it requires shifting from the monolythic 8 hours sleep trunk to a set of 6 naps of 25 to 30 minutes each spread throughout the day every 4 hours.

Is it possible not to sleep more than 25 minute at a time? The research made by practitionners have demonstrated that it was completely feasable. A little understanding of the sleeping pattern is needed. When sleeping, the body goes into different phases of sleep: simply put, there is the non-REM slow-wave sleep and the REM sleep. REM sleep is popularly associated with dreaming. By shifting your body to polyphasic sleep, you actually make your body go immediately into the REM phase instead of much later in the sleep cycle. Of course it takes time to adapt, practitionners estimate it to approximatively one week but after that, everything will be on track and no sleep deprivation should be felt at all.

So I have decided to adapt my body to this new schedule. From today onward, I will try to blog on a daily basis about my experience and my feelings about it.

Please feel free to send me feedback and questions, I’ll be glad to answer you.

Not even a backup done!

We surely will meet again but only time can tell when and it probably won’t be so soon taking into account the distance that separate all of us…

One thing happened today… Which could have ternished a bit this end of week end but yet, ended rather well… We went to restaurant with my friend and there was this beautiful girl eating there all alone… We could have assumed that she was a tourist tourist the region and degusting some typical french food. I had for intention to talk to her and perhaps share a moment altogether around a beer.
To that purpose, I asked for a pen and wrote a note… I did not want to go talk to her as she seemed to be looking for peace and would probably not have appreciated to be disturbed… So I wrote the note and called the waiter in order to pass it to her… To which he very rudly refused without much more consideration : “NO”. He just walked off… … And the girl left on the same minute leaving me powerless…
I was quite disapointed but and mostly upset towards the waiter… Why did he refuse and most importantly, why in such a rude way?
Refusing is fine, but at least you give an explanation and you don’t treat your client like a fool!!! I refrain myself on the moment but when time came to pay, I went to the counter with my credit card and cleared the bill… And at that moment I made sure that they remembered me by telling them what I really think of their behaviour… Respect is one thing I can never give in on! So they know!

After that things were back to normal and we all went to this irish pub have a beer…
We ordered and watch football! Everything was all cool… Then we noticed that the bar was kinda collection bank notes and putting it on the wall….
So I went to the counted and asked him, he noded so I proposed to give him Malaysian Ringgets notes… Sure he accepted … And he proposed me a pint of beer against it…
…
So I got a pint of beer worth 5.5 euros for 1 note of RM1 and another note of Dirham 5…
Worth it or not??

;)
That gave me back a good mood!!!

Ok enough for tonight!

We’ve been listening to some celtic and argentina music as I was looking for one artist that I had listened to few years back.
This actually was the very point for me to write this entry…
I have been looking for this artist always… I once listened to her music on the channel 5 in France which is some kind of equivalent to the very famous discovery channel that you all know… Well, I once heard her voice and it was charged with so much emotions and feelings that until now I could not forget… I even went to buy a cd of her, unsuccesfully … I indeed could not find any cd from her! I even attempted to order the cd, that is enquire the shop to make a very special order for a very special item just especially for me, again unsuccesfully… The music is just too… scarce… Never encountered that before right? Me either….

Tonight, in another attempt, I seeked on internet for some artists’ name… in order to perhaps get a spark in my mind that would say “That one is the one!”. So I browsed the net as I did not do for a very long time, looking for some long time forgotten information… I usually just use internet for my email and research purposes… Anyway… We both listened to some very nice music especially Moya (Maire) Brennan…
Please visit this celtic website in french

Well… besides the fact that I did not find the so much seeked artist, I have been enjoying my evening listening to different kind of musics… japanese, argentina, celtic, and so on… Some more, I still am enjoying some very delicious wine!

My mom now went to the sofa and I shall join her soon.

You all take good care while I’m away and I shall find you soon there in Malaysia!!

I am here listening to some foreign new age music and watching pictures of my days passed in Joensuu in Finland. And it made me feel nostalgic all of a sudden, tears ready to roll on my cheeks… Just like that day I had to leave… I still remember; My memories still so fresh…
It was by morning. my lecturers as well as friends sent me to the railway station to catch my 5-hours-long-journey-train to Helsinki. The train was so empty… I waved from my seat, then they left… From the second both of them were out of sight, tears started to roll… Like heart broken, torned … This feeling of leaving someone you love, against your will… This feeling of leaving a place where you’ve been happy… Moments flashing altogether in your mind…
I recall those happy memories as I watch those pictures. It is already 3 years ago but it feels like it was yesterday… Such an unforgettable memory so full of emotions…

Being a foreigner in a foreign country enhances so many emotions and feelings… At the same time, it is so painful… It feels like you always see the people you cherich leaving… Always!

I have never been to any airport before I left to Finland 3 years back, I had never taken a plane ever… I could not speak any damn word of english! That day I decided to take this program is the day my life took a turn! A turn I would never have expected to be that considerable…. A turn in all sense… On every aspect of my person…

Going abroad really broaden your mind!!!

I have experienced culture shock several times… Most of the time, you don’t understand what’s going on!
I have experienced culture shock in Finland… Indeed, though Finland and France are somewhat neighbours, both cultures are very different.
Then in Malaysia when I first reached. My first culture shock was when I was invited by my indian friends to their flat… I felt so intimidated at first.
I got a second culture shock when I went for Thaipusam… It was not less than 1 year after I first reached malaysia. I was quite adapted already … Yet Thaipusam is out of what I could ever have expected…
I did not experienced the culture shock with Malaysian Chinese people… I guess their mildness is the reason and I just blended with them seemingly…
However, I experienced a culture shock with the chinese culture when I first met my friend from China… We have been through some trouble moments and I guess, conservative as she was, she shown me the real face of the chinese culture… rigid, unflexible, unforgiving… I really respect her for her integrity and her sharp mind but I have to say that it was a bit scary in a way…

All I could say is that I have been through a lot! I have learn so much and I still am learning! I feel like there is no one day I don’t learn something!
Seldom but still, I experience the wisdom hit when you suddenly realize something and it appears so clearly to your eyes that you wonder how come you did not see it any earlier.

My last wisdom hit happened one month back.
Sometimes, when you do something, you might wonder why you don’t get the results other get when they are doing the same thing…. I have been asking myself that question… In any aspect of life, I always question myself. Is it because I don’t do it right? What is it that I need to change in order to make it happen… Sometimes, the little thing you need to change does not appear to your eye because you might just be so convinced that the way you do is the right way…

It took me a lot of thinking… and talking… especially with my mum and with my close friends…

Sometimes, you know there is a problem but you don’t know what is the problem… You can only see the consequences of the problem… You might want to correct the consequences, find solutions to make things better…
Think again, think carefully and… FIND THE ROOT!

When you find what the problem really is, the solution comes instantly! It is like a door being unlocked within yourself! It is like the energy was concealed and you let the flow go!
It is a wonderful feeling and from one second to the other, it is like you are a different man! And that is what I felt…

So, as you may know, I am doing programming for a fairly small company in Kuala Lumpur… It is pretty interesting and I learn really a lot! Anyway, the point is that the company is very small… Indeed I am in the strategic position where the HR is on my right watching straight to me and my boss is in his glass windowed office watching all of us, and more particularly, he can see my face from there…

AND… yes you must be thinking that there is nothing that special about that! Indeed, nothing special.
What is special is me! I just am kinda very smilly person. I may smile in front of my screen, just while I am writting an email, chatting with a friend, having a popup thought … And even just while working.

This particular is bringing me trouble and today, my HR just asked me to control my reaction when chatting! But then, I am asking you! How to control yourself from smiling. It is very painful, annoying. My face is completely strained by the effort! Worse, it become difficult to focus on my work when I actually try so hard to control my expressions..

Another problem is that if a friend popup online, I dare not even to write to him because I definitely know that I will have problems not to smile!!!!!

What a hell of a life if I cannot smile anymore!!!

Please guys, help me out! This is a huge problem…

But then, one month ago or so, I met her and she informed me that the class did start again and that I was very welcome to join again. I was very happy and willingfull but then I never went… Got busy with I don’t know what again.

So today, I told her that perhaps I should stop to tell her that I will join because I never find the time! But then I felt so down… My mood totally dropped…
So I sent her sms to tell her that I would join after all! I went there and it was so good! She was also so grateful that I finally came. She doesnt have to! After all she gives the tuition for free which is very generous of her!

And one other good point is that…. Most participants are girls! Last time we have only one girl for four or five guys. This time at least 3 girls for me alone… I have heard that there is another guy dancing but he didnt show up this time!

The most exciting part is that those girls are those who did the demonstration at the APIIT year end celebration. They are very lovely! And so gracious in their dancing…

So I promised myself to always keep my wednesday evening free for those lady!