Nostalgy
Boredom hit me today.
It has been a long time ever since it last happened… But today, boredom hit me right in the face followed by Nostalgy.
I am here listening to some foreign new age music and watching pictures of my days passed in Joensuu in Finland. And it made me feel nostalgic all of a sudden, tears ready to roll on my cheeks… Just like that day I had to leave… I still remember; My memories still so fresh…
It was by morning. my lecturers as well as friends sent me to the railway station to catch my 5-hours-long-journey-train to Helsinki. The train was so empty… I waved from my seat, then they left… From the second both of them were out of sight, tears started to roll… Like heart broken, torned … This feeling of leaving someone you love, against your will… This feeling of leaving a place where you’ve been happy… Moments flashing altogether in your mind…
I recall those happy memories as I watch those pictures. It is already 3 years ago but it feels like it was yesterday… Such an unforgettable memory so full of emotions…
Being a foreigner in a foreign country enhances so many emotions and feelings… At the same time, it is so painful… It feels like you always see the people you cherich leaving… Always!
I have never been to any airport before I left to Finland 3 years back, I had never taken a plane ever… I could not speak any damn word of english! That day I decided to take this program is the day my life took a turn! A turn I would never have expected to be that considerable…. A turn in all sense… On every aspect of my person…
Going abroad really broaden your mind!!!
I have experienced culture shock several times… Most of the time, you don’t understand what’s going on!
I have experienced culture shock in Finland… Indeed, though Finland and France are somewhat neighbours, both cultures are very different.
Then in Malaysia when I first reached. My first culture shock was when I was invited by my indian friends to their flat… I felt so intimidated at first.
I got a second culture shock when I went for Thaipusam… It was not less than 1 year after I first reached malaysia. I was quite adapted already … Yet Thaipusam is out of what I could ever have expected…
I did not experienced the culture shock with Malaysian Chinese people… I guess their mildness is the reason and I just blended with them seemingly…
However, I experienced a culture shock with the chinese culture when I first met my friend from China… We have been through some trouble moments and I guess, conservative as she was, she shown me the real face of the chinese culture… rigid, unflexible, unforgiving… I really respect her for her integrity and her sharp mind but I have to say that it was a bit scary in a way…
All I could say is that I have been through a lot! I have learn so much and I still am learning! I feel like there is no one day I don’t learn something!
Seldom but still, I experience the wisdom hit when you suddenly realize something and it appears so clearly to your eyes that you wonder how come you did not see it any earlier.
My last wisdom hit happened one month back.
Sometimes, when you do something, you might wonder why you don’t get the results other get when they are doing the same thing…. I have been asking myself that question… In any aspect of life, I always question myself. Is it because I don’t do it right? What is it that I need to change in order to make it happen… Sometimes, the little thing you need to change does not appear to your eye because you might just be so convinced that the way you do is the right way…
It took me a lot of thinking… and talking… especially with my mum and with my close friends…
Sometimes, you know there is a problem but you don’t know what is the problem… You can only see the consequences of the problem… You might want to correct the consequences, find solutions to make things better…
Think again, think carefully and… FIND THE ROOT!
When you find what the problem really is, the solution comes instantly! It is like a door being unlocked within yourself! It is like the energy was concealed and you let the flow go!
It is a wonderful feeling and from one second to the other, it is like you are a different man! And that is what I felt…
